Des Morceaux

Feeling just a little upset with my family. But I can’t post it on Facebook. Anyways. I got married. I asked my brother to “give me away” he said yes. But some unfortunate events happened on his life, so it ended up not working out. I was very understanding. My family also supported him through this rough time. But I didn’t feel their support through my time. It seems as If my family thrives off of sad events. Deaths, divorce, prison… Those events bring us close. But a wedding, oh that’s nothing. “I must not worry because they will be there to support my divorce” that’s how I feel. Anyways, my brother didn’t show up because of finances and he couldn’t make it. A week later he gets three tattoos. 3 weeks later he drives to California for the second time. (he drove there 2 weeks before my wedding and mentioned he might nog be able to afford gas to get to my wedding)…. Now he is in California, and my family is high on life with him. It just frustrates me. I don’t feel the family connection at all, not to mention he didn’t congratulate me, send a gift or anything sentimental. I feel like separating my family completely and starting over. I’m only 21 years old and I have to deal with is??? Im smart enough to know that just because a few men screw you over, not every man is like that. Like my husband for instance. He is amazing. God for instance. Without the Lord I would be bitter. I want to be bitter at my family so bad. I want to act like them, immature ad lash out. But I know I’m smarter and stronger. Yes, I’m frustrated and confused and I feel unloved by them. But I know God knows what’s up. I just wish they would get the clue.